yonghan

2010-06-22T00:59:00.000+08:00

我會慢慢等慢慢等慢慢等
慢慢等慢慢等慢慢等等上線的鈴聲
慢慢等等到我都睡著了 耐心等只為了心動那一刻

2010-06-19T14:42:00.002+08:00

饭团之家 song :)

陳思涵 - 雨不停

作詞/作曲：思涵(CSHA)

窗外下著雨
敲打著冰冷空氣
好像說著你我
早已全都沒有關係

心冷頭暈手很冰
渴望被溫暖握緊
但我繼續假裝
假裝我不在意

誰說是錯的時間
錯的空間那不是絕對
我不想去管去猜
能不能愛了就不後悔

我一直愛著過去愛著你
而我的淚就好像雨從不會停
不想要再去壓抑我的心
那些曾經我選擇相信

窗外下著雨
敲打著冰冷空氣
好像說著你我
早已全都沒有關係

心冷頭暈手很冰
渴望被溫暖握緊
但我繼續假裝
假裝我不在意

誰說是錯的時間
錯的空間那不是絕對
我不想去管去猜
能不能愛了就不後悔

我一直愛著過去愛著你
而我的淚就好像雨從不會停
不想要再去壓抑我的心
那些曾經我選擇相信

我一直愛著過去愛著你
而我的淚就好像雨從不會停
不想要再去壓抑
就算回憶繼續撕裂我的心
用盡力氣也無法喘息
傾盆大雨永遠不會停

2010-06-06T08:31:00.001+08:00

感人的台语歌。 i think i discovered this song while listening to his album while studying near darling harbour in first year, enjoying the breeze.

唱现场不容易，所以我觉得已经很棒了。

你是我的树头
词/曲：萧闳仁

甲你作伴已经归落冬
想要了解你的话通也不通
离开以后才知影孤单
搁想要看着你的影

假如时间会冻搁返去一摆
我会将你擦掉目屎
那是过去未冻搁重来
亲爱的你咁可以
搁会冻乎我牵着你的手

你是我的生命你是我的树头
甲你作伴跟你脚步爱只有我才知影
你是我的生命你是我的树头
你的爱我永远拢知
我会甲你的手牵着着
甲你牵着着

你是我的生命你是我的树头
甲你作伴跟你脚步爱只有我才知影

2010-06-03T19:22:00.000+08:00

best day ever.

professor brett hambly told me, 'if you ever need any recommendations, or want a good honours project in pathology, don't hesitate to come and find me, i'll remember you.'

OH. MY. GOD.

2010-05-09T19:34:00.002+08:00

i watched the latest episode of greys yesterday.

cristina yang, said "I miss my dad" with such grief and heartbreak i could feel the pain.

i dreamt about you during an afternoon nap. in the dream i wasn't conscious of any reality it all seemed like natural. surreal.
if not i would have dragged the dream so it wouldn't end.
i was financially abled and wanted to treat you to a good meal outside,
but you wanted to try on nicer clothes before going.
somehow everyone was sleeping.
then you wanted me to get you some makeup stuffs downstairs,
i knew nothing about these but was ready to go out
then i woke up.

what if deja vu works everytime?

happy mother's day, mom. another year on.

2010-05-02T12:50:00.002+08:00

2010-04-29T04:25:00.003+08:00

"When will you be home?" she asks
as we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer to where my dreams may lead
She's watched me as i crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go, I know she bleeds
and yet she says to me

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

Autumn leaves fell into spring time and
SIlver-painted hair
Daddy called one evening saying
"We need you. Please come back"
When I saw her laying in her bed
Fragile as a child
Pale just like an angel taking flight
I held her as I cried

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
ohh...
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

-----

was listening to this old song this morning, never paid attention to the lyrics because her voice was so charming.
泪，不自觉地淌下。太贴切了。太真实。太清晰。
有人说过，思念一个人，就是要时不时地想起她，挂念她，她在另一个世界才能得到我们的爱。而不是空着不去想。

i wished you're here to see what i'm doing.

i wished im the one receiving random calls from home asking me random questions without agenda. other people takes it for granted. i knew i'd never. even if i'm not what i am now.

"I love you, too much to make you stay; baby, fly away"

2010-04-26T23:56:00.000+08:00

theo van rysselberghe - sailing boats and estuary
georges seurat - port en bessin at high tide
maximilien luce - the seine at herblay
georges lemmen - beach at heist
theo - the man at the tiller.

2010-04-24T14:26:00.001+08:00

当爱情只剩眼睛少了耳朵
就变得你只看到你怕看的。

耳朵、嘴巴、眼睛。the simplest organs unlike the ones i just had in lectures last week.

listen. LISTEN.

2010-04-17T13:52:00.009+08:00

i guess sometimes there's always differences.
在一起, 不是说好要一起克服任何的困难的吗？

both must have contributed towards the final rage.
真的千万不能忘了当初的那份感动! 那份挚热！ (:

could YOU have reciprocated more?

S.H.E《少了一个人》

朋友聚会吵闹的快乐在她们离开以后变稀薄
走路回家回像山洞的窝突然渴望有人能来接我

泡著热水在浴室赖著思念却也被滚烫冒烟了
最后的简讯看到能背了多久没有再联络一想还是痛

少了一个人宠爱我
朋友的爱成分就是不同
最难过是笑著面对被羡慕自由
练很久的成熟也快遮掩不住寂寞

妈妈在电话裏挂念我上次欲言又止她还记得
喜欢装没事其实最累了 但我清楚很多事哭了也没用

少了一个人拥抱我
那种拥抱能够忘了所有
两个人就算下雪后赤脚逆著风
也不觉得冰冻还笑得比阳光炽热

少了一个人懂得我
能够体会我倔强又脆弱
不记仇温柔原谅我情绪太波动
用泪光舍不得融化我累积的寂寞

很固执无条件爱我从来没变过
在大吵的时候会抱著我沉默不动

2010-04-10T16:41:00.002+08:00

那夜誰將酒喝掉　因此我講得多了
然後你搖著我手拒絕我　動人像友情深了
我沒權終止見面　只因你友善依然
仍用接近甜蜜那種字眼通電
沒人應該　怨地怨天
得到這結局　難道怪罪神沒有更偽善的祝福

我沒有為你傷春悲秋不配有憾事
你沒有共我踏過萬里不夠劇情延續故事
頭髮未染霜　著涼亦錯在我幼稚　應快活像個天使

有沒有運氣再扮弱者　玩失意
有沒有道理為你落髮必須得到世人同意
心灰得極可恥　心傷得無新意
那一線眼淚　欠大志

愛若能堪稱偉大　再難捱照樣開懷
如令你發現為你而活到失敗
令人不安　我品性壞

我沒有為你傷春悲秋不配有憾事
你沒有共我踏過萬里不夠劇情延續故事
頭髮未染霜　著涼亦錯在我幼稚　應快活像個天使

有沒有運氣再扮弱者玩失意
有沒有道理為你落髮必須得到世人同意
心灰得極可恥　心傷得無新意
那一線眼淚　欠大志　太沒意思
若自覺這叫痛苦未免過份容易

我沒有被你改寫一生怎配有心事
我沒有被你害過恨過寫成情史　變廢紙
春秋只轉載要事　如果愛你欠意義
這眼淚　無從安置

我沒有運氣放大自私的失意
更沒有道理在這日你得到真愛製造恨意
想心酸　還可以　想心底　留根刺
至少要見面上萬次

a song of reflection;

2010-04-09T04:45:00.000+08:00

http://www.thelocal.se/25906/20100405/

nice

2010-04-08T15:16:00.001+08:00

top of the chart for 3 weeks already.

遠遠關心

遠遠分享.

2010-04-05T10:38:00.000+08:00

http://www.princeton.edu/artofscience/gallery2006/

art of science and science of art.

2010-04-04T15:51:00.000+08:00

2010-04-04T11:49:00.007+08:00

my favourite song of all times.

everything could be as easy as lalala! ;)
we should all be elmo
the harmony made it pretty sophisticated.
reminded me of sound of music~

on another note,
today i realised 3.14 is also a reflection of PIE. zomggggggggg

2010-03-25T01:08:00.003+08:00

i realised when i type 'time' really quickly i always miss out the 'e'. as in literally.
parkinsons?

fanweiqi said '不要把負面能量發射給別人、就是一種美德。' 觉得我认识很多人都做不到这一点。新的学习点。

近几天都睡不好本以为是gamsat搞的鬼但是那个恶魔都已经被铲除了但是还是一直落枕。满脑子都是一些乱七八糟的neuro还有做不完的readings看不完的深字。需要改变一下睡姿吧。

前天大约四点四十五吧突然好多噩梦涌上来。才发现窗户都关着，门也没打开。真的缺氧是很可怕的事情。最近有想念妈妈。人家说时间久了影子会淡化但是还好我的脑海里还是清晰的。

那天下午去了诺贝尔医学奖得主的演说她好棒有气质人家的发问她好象心里盘算分析都已经做好了她的slides更是没话说 probably the best referenced one. 观后感是认为我可能永远都没办法像她一样有自信的站在台上发表论点需要多大的勇气啊虽然还是很喜欢人与人的那种互动交流但不是那种hypothetical的research.

掰~

2010-03-22T08:41:00.000+08:00

If I had but an hour of love,

If that be all it's given me.

An hour of love; upon this earth,

I would give my love to thee.

2009-12-22T02:50:00.003+08:00

i guess i can't understand, or maybe i never will. i'm frustrated because everyone is complaining about everything, but have they forgotten that all the angst are hopelessly selfish? it's usually followed by a period of high morale enthusiasm, the faster the peak; the sooner it reaches the plateau when everything falls apart. then things will go slow, and then the complains starts, repeating the cycle. i know it all takes time, but in the midst of all procrastination can't we just be a little more caring, or at least, give a thought for others who actually DO CARE.

why can't some people spread abit more love, converse with more intelligence and weigh the pros and cons before making harsh decisions? it isn't difficult, it just takes a few more seconds, being older than me, shouldn't you fear the malaise of regret more than me? secrets? my gut feeling tells me i know more than you think i do. why can't some people have a bit more initiative, try to remember little things that actually mattered in life? yes, i don't know if its in the gene but at least, try? when people give you advice, they don't just rattle a few lines they picked up from quotegarden dot com or whatsoever. it went through their mind, and realised, OH, i think you should consider these to maybe get some enlightenment or make that minor improvement that could make a significant change in your meagre mortal life. appreciate, please. every. single. word. they mean it. can you love yourself more? why can't some people be less rigid, less stubborn, have a better idea of quality of life? i'm not going to say yadada yeah its hard leopard never changes its spot those bullshit because you'll be pretty much screwed. when you don't like something, say ' AI DONNCH LIKE EEEET.' come on, it's not like i don't understand you after so long. whatever.

i'm tired. i've learnt to give away more when i was there because somebody told me it's so hard to understand me. because i'm a twentytwo, i have to be socially acceptable so i can only smile when its 400% bliss. nope i haven't grown up, very very proud to say that because i'm not one of those kids who claimed to be mature but you're a sad rotten nut inside. i pity you. no there's nothing wrong with me. no no no. i'm crossed, cos it's a fight between being yourself and how you present yourself because people do judge you. its as good as saying i don't want to be fickled but i am, i don't want to be ironic but i am. all the happilyeverafter stories were only there to numb.

have you ever stayed up late at night, lying down on the bed when it's complete silent and what scares you most is this anticipation of loud screaming or thud that never came? literally, really. nothing imaginary, i vouch. i've been wanting to tell the whole world.

sleepless and nightmare filled nights clouded me since the day i flew from down under. say i'm childish or what, it is all the minute little things that clung on. i wrote them down on a piece of paper, they say it helps keep your mind organised. now that the list is slowly reduced to 5, but it increases to 15 just the moment when light squeezes its way into my dustfilled sty. on sunday i invented a technique. i imagined myself holding onto a bunch of straws and slowly putting them down one by one, in the action of banana peeling. it worked! can they please let it work every night?

the relationship between age responsibility and power is starting to show pressure in my life. i didn't feel accomplished. i was flipping through that those chronological pocketfiles and that metals with lost shine- no i didn't feel accomplished. jack of all trades, many would say. so what if you were heavily invested so long ago, you are still going to be spending more precious years than those bursting sparks. if the break is going to be 65, then it isn't enough time for me to prove myself right. it's beginning to dawn on me that i might just disappoint again. i peeped at you, every now and then, especially when i saw your back. i don't want to see you hunch. and i'm terrified of the whites and the lines just above your gaze. verge of tears always came when you're looking at the those letters, monthly bloodsucking letters. i know she wants me to divert all my love to you, because she can't be here anymore. can u feel it?

i had a dream back then. she was wearing purple. i'm considering this the first time because the previous time when i saw her i was merely picturing her with my eyes closed and i lied. she's happy, but leaving for somewhere. i didn't have a chance to ask, because i was too busy spending every moment looking, savouring every piece of moment. its that euphoria i haven't had since 3 years ago. suddenly all the tranquility resumed and i felt happy. then she was rushing to go away, i remembered smiling as i welcomed the reality.

don't ask, for goodness' sake.

2009-11-17T05:45:00.000+08:00

Exposure to Phthalates

Swan and her colleagues tested urine samples of 74 pregnant women who gave birth to boys and 71 who gave birth to girls, looking for nine different phthalates. The women were part of The Study for Future Families, an ongoing study.

When the children were ages 3.6 to 6.4 years, Swan's team asked the mothers to answer questions about their children's play behavior. Parents described the type of toys and play their children favored, and each child was given a score reflecting masculine-typical play or feminine-typical play.

Exposure to two of the nine phthalates, DEHP and DBP, was associated with less masculine play behavior, the researchers found.

For example, Swan says, ''If the mother's MEHHP concentration [one of the phthalate metabolites] was high, in the upper quartile, the odds that her boy had a score that was less masculine [in play behavior] was five times greater than mothers whose MEHHP was in the lowest quartile."

Exposure to phthalates may lower testosterone production in the fetus during a crucial period of development, at about 8 to 24 weeks' gestation, Swan says, when the testes begin to function, and in doing so alter sexual differentiation in the brain.

2009-11-15T15:50:00.001+08:00

damn funny to search your own name.

http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=jonathan

2009-11-14T16:40:00.001+08:00

i think it's time to let you go.

2009-11-13T20:50:00.002+08:00

Was googling my uni and got this:

http://www.smh.com.au/national/sydney-university-the-best-for-student-experience-union-survey-20091109-i5gl.html

Sydney University the best for student experience: union survey
November 10, 2009

THE University of Sydney has been rated the best in Australia for the quality of its student experience.

The National Union of Students rated universities based on five factors, including campus culture, availability of independent advocacy services and student representation.

The University of NSW, the Australian National University, the University of Melbourne, Monash University, and the University of Western Australia were also placed in the highest division.

The Lismore campus of Southern Cross University was among five universities in the lowest category.

The campus's student association folded after the Howard government introduced voluntary student unionism legislation in 2006, and was re-established only in August, with a $10,000 grant from the university.

A spokeswoman for the university said it had set aside $400,000 for student bodies next year.

Dan Harrison

:)

2009-11-13T20:50:00.001+08:00

Was googling my uni and got this:

http://www.smh.com.au/national/sydney-university-the-best-for-student-experience-union-survey-20091109-i5gl.html

Sydney University the best for student experience: union survey
November 10, 2009

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THE University of Sydney has been rated the best in Australia for the quality of its student experience.

The National Union of Students rated universities based on five factors, including campus culture, availability of independent advocacy services and student representation.

The University of NSW, the Australian National University, the University of Melbourne, Monash University, and the University of Western Australia were also placed in the highest division.

The Lismore campus of Southern Cross University was among five universities in the lowest category.

The campus's student association folded after the Howard government introduced voluntary student unionism legislation in 2006, and was re-established only in August, with a $10,000 grant from the university.

A spokeswoman for the university said it had set aside $400,000 for student bodies next year.

Dan Harrison

:)

2009-07-02T19:47:00.000+08:00

"The Square Root of Three" by David Feinberg

I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed

<3

2009-03-05T09:33:00.003+08:00

So here goes. *removing cobwebs*
Finally back in Sydney again. It's mostly hot during the day. But on certain days it does get cold - not that kind of chillwinds in winter though. Things went really fast these past 2 and a half weeks. I didn't expect myself to accomplish so much within such a short period of time. Am now staying with two friends with fabulous personalities - BW and J. One of whom was my BMT friend! And the latter is his sister's junior's cousin! All of them are very easy-going, funloving, and resourceful. :)

My first week was spent at this temporary accomodation called Annandale Lodge. It's kind of like a hostel, but minus the internet. The internet frenzy started when we were suddenly told the wireless at the lodge was actually paid-access. And we were extorted 20bucks each, when i had only used it for a night to chat with my dear friends. So I gave up, and went to friends' house. And then there was the router problem. And it only got fixed one day before school starts. Now i'm using the Library's computer! Argh.

So now i'm staying at Flemington. A rather peaceful suburb which seemed to have lots of Jasmine(flower) scrubs. And there's a playground (note: with swing) outside my house!
Can hear the birds singing every morning, and villa-like balcony with nice soft breezes every now and then.

And I have the worst timetable ever. 2 labs in one day. 5 schooldays a week. Starts at 8am every morning, which equals to waking up at 6am. My shortest day ends at 3pm. I make people feel better when they tell me how horrible is their timetable.

But however bad it is, I think i've gotten the more interesting lecturers amidst that horrible timeslots.
1. Prof Sharma is actually the mother of my tutor last sem! And she speaks in the same funny slang. haha
2. Dr. Parkinson! OK, i just liked that name.
3. Dr Osu. Her slides are comprehendable and organised.
4. Prof Max. Very old professor, mumbles to himself. But the strange thing is he's not all that monotonous when it comes to talking about his research. On his first day he apologised for having sorethroat cos he just came back from giving a talk in Singapore.
-_-. But he sounded equally coarse in the next lecture lor.

I didn't spend any money on textbooks! They're overly priced, even in sg. But the good thing is i managed to borrow it from the library! How awesome! I found it hidden in the medical quarto library where nobody visits! 'Cos the online catalogue usually only shows results from SciTech/the more popular libraries around the campus. Heng ah. not going to tell anyone. :X

Random things I noted since i came

1. Australians shout 'thank you' to busdrivers when they get down from the bus.
2. You can take trains for free illegally. As long as you get out and get in stations that have NO gantry. hahaa. But if you get caught its $550.
3. Buses and Trains are not as crampy as in sg. Cos the fares are simply too steep. People WALK. even for hours.
4. Smoking is allowed in aus train stations. but only unsheltered areas.
5. Graffiti is everywhere in suburbs! Some are actually quite cool.
6. I went to the paddy's market to get cheap groceries! (as cheap as in sg). its like a wet market-distributing area.
7. Fast(20mbps) and averaged-priced internet EXISTS. OMG. that's if you stay with friends. yay!
8. There are more singaporeans in my school that I had imagined.
9. Some koreans speak very bad english.
10. After several failed attempts of australians trying to remember my chinese name, I've decided and its going official. my english name is Jonathan. Yes, the name that i have had since forever but hadn't been using it. it's getting annoying, and i'm refusing every moment of this because i love my chinese name and i'm very cheena. alright, for the pragmatic's sake.

Sorry to everyone who tried contacting me and couldn't reach me!

gone.

2009-01-24T21:27:00.003+08:00

去了外婆家吃个团圆饭！外婆想得真周到。想必她老人家料到每个家庭都有自己的除夕年夜饭，所以特别选了今天到她那里吃火锅！爽的勒。有海参，鲍鱼，大虾，很入味的汤头，更少不了外婆每年都为我们准备得鱼翅汤！今年的羹跟妈妈煮的有点不一样，似乎稀了一点，但是还是有那‘家’的味道。好久没看到一些亲戚了。三舅的幽默感还是跟往年一样，每一句话都让我想笑。表哥表姐们也是。蛮久一段时间没看到他们了，还是无所不谈。珍珍表姐三月多要踏入红地毯了，真为她感到开心。只可惜不能出席她的婚礼。表弟秀了几个扑克牌魔术！超逊的。

水痘好得七七八八了。人家说要两三个星期才会复原。但是我好想五六天就好了。神奇。

新年真好！ :)

2009-01-22T23:45:00.002+08:00

I read that Rabbits would have quite a hard Lunar Year. In terms of health and love, it's down. But so-so for career stuff. :S

2009-01-20T09:41:00.004+08:00

Interesting advices from various sources about 水痘.

1. Don't ever bathe or shampoo. Let the blisters go 'dry'
2. Don't eat 'poisonous' seafood, chicken, and beans.
3. Soy sauce would darken the scars.
4. Police will catch you if you're found on the streets with 水痘。
5. Sitting in the same area under the same fan passes on the virus because it's airborne.
6. Don't go into the Sun.
7. Drink lots of water and herbal tea.

Googling the net showed that only the last 2 are scientifically proven. Can't stand the smell of the calamine lotion. hahaha

2009-01-19T19:55:00.002+08:00

Okay so it turned out to be something more vicious. chickenpox. I always had a wishful thinking that I'm that lucky person in the world who'll never get it my whole life.

Need to take the pills now. I don't want to describe how i feel now. That 'i' word makes me feel more 'i' -er.

2009-01-18T03:07:00.004+08:00

The silence is deafening. Kept awake by the heat in my brain; I think panadol is one of the best invention in the world. I never wanted to rely on such medicines 'cos the effect will just weaken the next time round. I thought the fever-diarrhoea that came with the celebration of new year was over, but it hit me all over again. And it's always the case whenever I tried to run at faster speed, in an attempt to lose some flabs. Nonetheless today I had loads of fun! I seriously think I have awesome friends. Really lucky. J was pitch-perfect! The fir songs were like. zomfg well sang lah. *impressed*

Haven't been updating this blog! I think i'll post up photos I took this holiday! And wow, this is like the longest and fun-nest holiday I've had a long long time. Spending quality time with family and of course, great friends. Realised that you don't really have to meet a person all the time/or know the person in great detail to have a lasting friendship with him/her. It's weird, but it's happening. Like I thought I had a great network of friends in school last time, but the true ones are like, 10? Army and flyer. Some of the old friends I only met up with them after like 5 years since sec.4. And the nostalgia just gets into your head, and as if I've seen them just recently eh.

Time to recall what i've been doing recently! blogging's all about recording my history anyways.
- Met up with junshengjeremydanielcheehoouranjanitammyrahidahhenryjasmineanita
michelleeevonnsomeflyerpeepsguohuaraymondweiwenallanallmycousins and manymore
- Went to eat the best bak chor mee at lavender with the Js. (:
- Took the flyer ride twice! (flyer crashed in dec. and steven left! tsk)
- Tidied my room
- Gardening. My plants are rescued. And even the cactus is flowering!
- Sang kbox. Many times.
- Dentist. I love the smell, somehow!
- Finished watching all the latest series (greys/dh/taiwanshows)
- Watched mayday live concert! <3
- Got new stuffs. shirts,shoes,bag,blah (:
- Checked my first uni results. I hate the jittery and butterflies. You'd know you've tried hard, but it's always not enough. But I managed to pass everything! Not the best results, but i'm really happy already. It's got to do with the magical examination room, with unknown peace.
- Finished reading all the latest books by ji mi!
- Prayings.
- And I've been playing pet society on facebook! The guy who did this flash game is utter pro. CUTENESS. Argh. Have to stop that addiction before it manifests into what neopets did to me years back. hahas.
- Eating alot! (bah) Can't bear to leave the food wasted on that kitchen table.
- Sent off my dearest bro bro to Sweden! It's going to be tough, i know. It's freaking -4 degrees there. 但是身经百战的他总会得到上天的眷顾然后化腐朽为神奇。很庆幸有他。I guess it'll be a really fulfilling trip for my dearest bro bro.
- Booked my tickets back.
- Running errands for the entire world!

Not quite done yet, but that's all I can remember now. Suddenly my headache is gone now that i'm summing up this post. hahaha

I think I love everyone. alot! :)

2008-12-22T23:24:00.000+08:00

不是幸福的人
才会微笑
而是微笑的人
才会幸福

学会爱就是享受幸福的开始.

2008-12-22T13:22:00.001+08:00

雪雨 - 梁文音

Xue Yu 雪雨 - Rachel Liang Wen Yin 梁文音

若非这一场雨
有些事再也不会想起
你怀里那片温暖的遮蔽
如今剩一把伞温热我手心
学你的语气
连道别都如此的温馨
两个字比眼泪还断续
是否表示你也不忍分离
回忆是冰封在眼睛的雨
藏着多幸福的事情
回不去是你
任谁也换不了的过去
爱情是凝结在脸颊的雨
像水晶总会融去
才那么美丽
感谢那个雨季
身旁的人是你
时间是冻结在玄关的雨
模糊你离去的脚印
至少那涟漪
证明我们曾走在一起
你是那飘落在昨天的雨
在心里留下回忆
却遥不可及
仿佛那一个梦里哦
还躲在离散地

2008-12-11T12:31:00.003+08:00

i don't like this feeling.

offending people on a daily basis.

gotta fix this dude.

2008-12-09T20:27:00.002+08:00

why can't singaporeans keep their left on escalator.

its getting annoying.

i went for scaling today! totally <3 the cleanliness now.

woohoO!

2008-12-07T21:16:00.003+08:00

有人问我，二十一岁了、开心吗。的确，二十一岁真的没什么。反而觉得老，对事物的看法也开始往悲观走下坡。没有什么好啦。回来已经有。。两个星期了吧！刚下飞机离开机场的那一刻，满头都是汗。哈哈哈。看到几个好友真的很开心很开心。

I was riding the bike around the neighbourhood last week. Yishun have gone under quite a large makeover. Northpoint was one. There is this extended part of the building near the cinema. Oh yes and the library. Yishun Community library! It's becoming a community centre literally. Kids were scurrying about without any supervision; the comfy seats near the entrance were taken up as though someone will die not having one. And maybe 'cos it's new: there weren't many books. I searched the catalogue for a 几米 biography but it was missing from the shelf. all in all, it was a noisy, and messy library with empty shelves.

It's not all that bad. Shops that sprung up in the building sells good stuff too.

Met up with the awesomest friends. 看到他们不知道为什么我显得比较安静，但是我好想告诉他们我看到他们有多么的兴奋。我得了自闭症是吧。很多话想要告诉他们，但是不知道要从哪里开始。悉尼其实真的只是另一个新加坡。无情的眼神，匆忙的脚步，还有不合理的对待。在那里的日子并没有他们想象的那么好。It's really not the sweetest thing to be alone in the cold, lonesome world. 不懂得表达自己。但是现在的我已经可以应对自如了。活到了二十一才第一次自己搭飞机。The experience sent chills down my spine when i recall it. At the check-in I was told that my baggage was over the limit, and the Qantas lady wasn't very friendly. I then throw away some stuff in my baggage, and managed to reduce it from 34kg to 27kg. The limit is 25, but she allowed. She asked if I wanted window seat, so a cloud-lover me would apparently say yes. Anyway I paid thousand over just to travel. But in the end it was a corridor seat instead. Y did she lie. She probably didn't know about karma. I mean like, if its not available then why ask me in the first place? The second shock was when i was getting myself mentally prepared for the flight, the pilot announced 'I'm sorry for the delay. We're currently having some data loss and we're trying to recover them from the hard drive' (not the exact words but similar meaning). I freaked out. Qantas. Should I get out of the plane or what. hahaha. I held my palms praying very hard and stayed on.

ok i'm still in one piece. haha. none of my worse fears came true. (:

发现到：
老爸还是一样的帅。haha
家里变得整齐多了。
我的向日葵枯了。

2008-11-18T10:23:00.003+08:00

Yes i'm quite done for 08. After so long, it's the first time I'm feeling the omg-my-bladder-is-going-to-burst urge in the last 15 min of my last paper. But it's alot better than the days sitting with knees crossed in the army LT listening to lectures on how to blow up a door. I wanted to wave for a toilet break but the guy announced that 'Students are reminded that nobody is to leave the examination hall until the end of paper'. Really not quite confident with this last 3. haha.anyway Maclaurin hall really looked kind of magical. I felt like harry potter, because the place looked like the dining area in the movie. And i secretly imagined the moving staircases. There were also large human-size portraits at the end of hall, and the church-like glass windows with myriad of beautiful colours. And the Old retired invigilators whispering into our ears when i had queries who looked like professor mcgonagall and dumbledores. wOOt.

I'm catching my hogwarts express at terminal 1.5 in coming week! (:

2008-11-16T11:11:00.002+08:00

五月天 - 突然好想你

我們那麼甜那麼美那麼相信那麼瘋那麼熱烈的曾經
為何我們還是要奔向各算的幸福和遺憾中老去. sobs.

2008-11-15T19:24:00.002+08:00

我的手肘很痛

再多一个

多一个就好了林勇翰

edit at 1: 有个不踏实的心情。

2008-11-13T22:33:00.003+08:00

THANK YOU EVERYONE!

I'm TWENTYONE!

不错哦。有押韵。 hahaha

I made one wish. So I still have twenty left. I'll use it slowly throughout the year!

我是大人了! MUHAHAHA

2008-11-12T17:45:00.006+08:00

i want to watch spongebob squarepants
i want to watch harry potter movies all over again
i want to finish my 牵牛花开的日子
i want to watch all the new seasons of greys anatomy,desperate housewives n heroes
i want to start House and gossip girl seasons
i need about 10 tubs each of ben and jerry cherry garcia, newyork superfudge chunk
i need to sing many many many songs
i need to eat many many many food
i want my bak chor mee and pi dan zhou
i want to play my black and white along the stairway
i want to do some meaningful work, volunteering and spread some love.
i need to do more cardio.
i need some retail therapy
还有家里人的拥抱。:)

我更需要平凡的幸福。

不用钱的简单幸福，该有多好啊。

2008-11-12T04:55:00.001+08:00

Matrix Runs on Window!

how true.

2008-11-10T17:43:00.004+08:00

I've been on a long hiatus, well, not really with the hills and mountains of scribbling rough papers.

Something peculiar is happening on facebook. It seems that couples are breaking up this season. Exams? But some of them i know are already in working society. It's so depressing to see that change in status from 'In a relationship' to 'It's complicated' then 'Single'. ): And I find it even weirder why there is a 'comments' function beside the status bar. How awkward it is to ask about their breakup when they are already so sad. It's so insensitive to question people's feelings.

Anyways, facebook is evil. It's such a distraction when i'm trying to focus on something important. Or maybe I could try some ADD pills to keep that concentration. or Anzac. LOL ((:

Just now when i went to Mcdonalds, there was only one female cashier crew. My point is, how can anyone have such natural perfect looks! By perfect i mean good complexion, every part of the face at the right size and angle complementing each other, not necessarily big round eyes and sharp nose (as perceived by the society). I was thinking about what to order while looking at the billboards on top. But when i put my gaze down at the cashier and started talking i was completely baffled for words. 吓到嘴巴掉下来。 I went like 'I.... I.. Can I have... Erm..' haha. She didn't have any makeups on, and looked totally like someone who walked out of the movie screens. and She's probably a japanese. Cos her nametag shows a jap name. Argh. how can such golden ratio exist. In the end I just ordered an icecream and left.

Ok. rants out. back to the piles.

2008-10-30T19:52:00.006+08:00

Legend has it that, 'When the Jacaranda Tree in the Quadrangle blooms, and you haven't started studying for exams, you're a goner.'

It bloomed. Damn.

What's so beautiful about this tree is, it's completely purple pink. Somehow or rather the leaves only grow in summer. And flakes of flowers fall when wind blows, it's an awesome view! 还有阵阵的花香。有安抚人心的力量。

I better go. no, run. :)

2008-10-28T04:32:00.006+08:00

I find that I'm easily amused.

Yesterday's skill test was the most grueling thing I've done in months. Five whole hour, in fact-six, i was one of the last to leave. I saw people leaving halfway though. Either they're too smart or they simply don't care. The excel on a Mac was a killer: We're only given 30minutes to construct all the formulas and tables, on Mac's excel, mind you. I never understood why people loved Mac. Ok, apple products are goodlooking, userfriendly(ipod) and interactive. But for office programs, i would really beg to differ. Couldn't even find the place to fix cells. I'm an idiot. Anyhow, I managed to finish the test and handed in the diagnostic report that i had burnt the night for.

Then a series of things I saw out of the norm.
Library sent me an email telling me the book I placed on hold (many months ago) is ready for collection! WOW. It's not an ordinary book. that book costs like 150 bucks its so hot that everyone else is requesting for a copy.
At victoria park A guy was playing 'Fly me to the moon' with a gargantuan unpolished saxaphone very loudly. Apparently he need to tune his instrument properly next time.
Then another tattoo guy was hugging his jukebox radio the size of a medium luggage bag, sitting on a bench and shaking with the music.
Fire engines came steering between cars to get to my suburb. There was a fire. It was like in action movie! everyone stopped to watch, as if time froze. haha. i love the way cars giving way to the big guy, when fire engines defy all traffic lights, road signs, supposed road direction on the monotonous street to save people. i've nv seen it before.
My landlord made extra meatpies for me! She, being a doctor, has never given me an impression that she can understand recipe books like amazing mrdaniel. I always see her reading thick pathological texts. haha. but anyway, the meatpie 很令我感动。已经有一段时间没有吃到热烘烘的家常菜了 (:

and now a baby cockroach is standing on my laptop, looking in my direction. -_-

See, I'm so easily amused with random events.

2008-10-22T16:47:00.004+08:00

It's the 13th rainbow I've seen in my whole life! (Yes I counted) and 1st time in australia! This is the clearest, and the most complete one. I managed to catch the complete arc (end to end) when crossing the road; totally stunned. Could only take it on the road shoulder, so here's the half.

This is a sign. A good sign.

But things happened, and i recalled Le Chatelier's principle that when a system is disrupted, the equilibrium shifts to counter-act the imposed change. I got back my quiz: no mistakes. The afternoon test went smoothly. Then the weather suddenly turned cold the entire day when it was supposed to be hot. And the wind was so strong my umbrella was flipped onto the other side like a funnel in front of so many onlookers. And I nearly tripped on the way back. Force of nature right.

真的，有得必有失 leh. haha.

But anyway, it was a happy day. (:

2008-10-20T15:25:00.004+08:00

There's this new lecturer. He's a french, or rather, he speaks english with a unique french accent. An associate prof in his 30s, but i heard he's very very experienced in his field. He's a funnyman, and makes it a point to explain really complicated procedures in layman's term. Could see that everyone enjoys his lectures. I wanted to record a short clip of his voice, cos it tickles e funny bone. Words like 'reduction' is pronounced with a classy french tone as 'redookshoon'. 'example' was emphasized with the 'le', which i assume is 'the' in french. 'S' becomes 'Z' and 'that' becomes 'dart'! LOL :)) Once after the lecture my friend rushed to me with pink cheeks and screamed 'OMG i asked him a question! OMG i can't imagine he just talked to me! he's so totally cute!!'

-_- wth.

He reminded me of ratatouille, french cuisine and red wine. i must be too hungry during lecture. heh

My school is now higher in ranking than melbourne! I'm not particular about this, but the school seems to be happy. And it's just one # below UCBerkeley! It was in the weekly newsletter. I personally don think its too accurate, because peking, dartmouth and washington is below 40. thats kind of impossible.

taken from : Times Higher Education UK (click)

Anyhow, 3 more weeks to exams! I wanna make this work. (:

2008-10-19T12:23:00.002+08:00

世界变得好快
我用尽了力气抓住时间的尾巴

还有一个月，我就可以吃到肉挫面，吃都吃不完的印度煎饼，更少不了老爸贴心的米粉.
不是说唐人街买不到，只是这里没有那个feel.

那天听了周杰伦的新专辑，心里的OS已经告诉我‘又是同一个调调的周氏情歌’。一样重复的和弦、转音、rap.
但是重听了《稻香》，其实也很有味道。
不是他的曲，而是周董自己填的词吸引了我.

很动人的词。听听看。

《稻香》词：周杰伦曲：周杰伦

　　对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
　　跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
　　为什么人要这么的脆弱堕落
　　请你打开电视看看
　　多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
　　我们是不是该知足
　　珍惜一切就算没有拥有
　　还记得你说家是唯一的城堡随着稻香河流继续奔跑
　　微微笑小时候的梦我知道
　　不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
　　回家吧回到最初的美好
　　不要这么容易就想放弃就像我说的
　　追不到的梦想换个梦不就得了
　　为自己的人生鲜艳上色先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色
　　笑一个吧功成名就不是目的
　　让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义
　　童年的纸飞机现在终于飞回我手里
　　所谓的那快乐赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
　　偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了谁在偷笑呢
　　我靠着稻草人吹着风唱着歌睡着了
　　哦哦午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆
　　哦哦阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
　　珍惜一切就算没有拥有

2008-10-12T15:26:00.003+08:00

Australians ask the weirdest questions. and I've learnt the hard way. Like in the supermarket, they don't go by 'Hi, Good morning'. Aussies greets 'Hi, how are you?'. What's unusual is they don't expect an answer at all. Someone said 'How heavy was the rain?' I

AUD$ fell below SGD today! When i came it was 1AUD dollar : 1.3 Sing. Now it's like 1AUD : 0.9SGD! I hope it'll continue to weaken. Like 0.6 will be great!

2008-10-09T19:59:00.008+08:00

I was told that Yishun Library will be moving to Northpoint! That's good news. And it'll be opening on 14th November. Just in time when I go back.

Photo of the day - Hungry Jacks. Australia's version of Burger King. the burger is HUGE. I think i'll eat it again tomorrow.

I got my exam timetable already. It's well spread out, luckily. I've been trying to find out about Summer School during holidays, which was believed to help me accelerate my degree. But seems like it's impossible to finish it, 'cos i'm only allowed 2 modules per holiday.

My mood plunged to the lowest today. Don't know why. I think i missed home.

2008-10-03T11:44:00.005+08:00

我的電台 FM S.H.E
- 07 喜碧夫人時間

xi bi fu ren shi jian 喜碧夫人时间 - S.H.E

Aww. 我怎么会这么傻！ LOL

2008-10-02T12:53:00.003+08:00

I bought Krispy Kreme doughnuts yesterday. It was somewhat bigger than Donut Factory's, yet it's not THAT sweet. I tried the 'Sensational Strawberry' and 'Glazed Devil's Food'. There was satisfaction after the first bite. The chocolate devil tastes like sugar-glazed brownies. But of course, the doughnuts there are slightly pricier. 5+ for two.

It's finally the break. Got too bored yesterday and rekindled my childhood love for pokemon for a day! Went onto googling for the latest updates and found out that the Platinum version is out in japan! Nobody can feel the excitement that I have. Like. after playing the Blue, Red, Green, Yellow, Gold, Silver, Crystal, LeafGreen, FireRed, Ruby, Sapphire, Emerald, Diamond and Pearl VERSIONS, (that's alot), i'd probably thought that the huge nintendo-game-market-manipulator-back-in-those-days will be short for ideas. This current one is actually quite exciting! Cuter creatures, nicer graphics. And the storyline now includes the Torn world, which depicts global warming and all the big issues.

We may call that escapism from the real world. It's the same reason why I love Heroes. My ex-Platoonmates who told me that Heroes is just another x-men series, and it's the same old plot for people with supernatural powers. But I gotta say it's different. There's more emphasis on how they cope with these abilities, and saving humanity. IT's more 'real' in a sense that, it brings hope to the audience. I'm always looking forward to seeing new powers in new casts, and how it manifests within them. Things like that will definitely not happen, but I like to believe in miracles.

Ok, the weather's treating me fine. Windy.

That day i went to the Medlibrary at bosch and conclude that fisherlib was better. Fisher was bigger! and have friendlier librarians. haha

My roommate was telling me about Daylight Saving Time! It's going to happen this sunday at 2am! IT didn't occur to me that I had to know about this. Sydney's time is going to accelerate by one hour! like in sg if its 6pm, it's going to be 9pm. It feels really good , the idea that human race is actually controlling time, and not the other way round.

The drawback is that I have to go online LATER than usual to see my family and dear flyermates. :\ DAMN.

I'm going out to buy some fruits.

2008-09-28T20:18:00.003+08:00

I was overwhelmed by the strangely vast number of good-looking people I see on the streets.
It's scary. Some even looked the same. What's wrong with the world now

Anyway, I dreamt that I was falling from great heights. It bothered me so much that I checked out what it meant. Some website says it's triggered by a drop in blood pressure, a movement of the fluid in the middle ear. Some say its a loss of equilibrium or self-control, and fear of failure and letting go. But its not true. Cos i'm quite happy with what I have now. I just wanted to type this out so it gets out of my mind and to fill this blog entry. haha.

All the American tv series are back! Heroes, Desperate Housewives, Gossip Girl, Grey's Anatomy! If i get to choose Heroes powers, I'll want Matt's Mind Control and Linderman's Healing. I'm going to watch them now. NOWW :)

2008-09-26T19:38:00.001+08:00

Emo song to intro. It's by xiaohongren, 歌词很有写实感，而曲又很煽情。 A new singer, he composed most of his songs. This is one of them. What distinguishes him from the rest is that he sings hokkien songs in a very new-age style too. And he's classical-musically trained, so this song has some elements of minor baroque tunes at interludes.
It's been on my mind these days. 听了有立志向上的一种推动力。很舒服、却不失激动。
活着，就是要坚强

学会放弃，学会接受.

學會 - 蕭閎仁

萧闳仁 - 学会

学会放弃学会接受
因此也学会沉默
看你苦笑看你不想说
我看见你的冷漠

一天两天还有明天
羞涩的风在叹息
你牵我的手我也牵着你的手
不过 Hey

离开的时候记得告诉我
我会哭着
夏天的午后你影子不见了
我了了

我学会了我了解了
有些人失去后才珍惜
别再乱哭泣
难过已来不及会淡去

我学会了我谅解了
为什么离开了还挂念你
反正都已不在
变的空白爱失去自由

一天两天还有明天
羞涩的风在叹息
你牵我的手我也牵着你的手
不过 Hey

离开的时候记得告诉我
我会哭着
夏天的午后你影子不见了
我了了

我学会了我了解了
有些人失去后才珍惜
别再乱哭泣
难过已来不及会淡去

我学会了我谅解了
为什么离开了还挂念你
反正都已不在
变的空白爱失去自由

2008-09-26T16:26:00.002+08:00

I need to stop time. Or at least let me run fast.

And keeping my sanity intact has become quite a challenge.

I didn't understand the chiminologies used in today's lecture, and most of the rest didn't too. The prof was mumbling to himself, 7 out of 8 words in a sentence consisted on abbreviation and scientific terms nobody has heard before. I didn't want to be rude, so I stayed on to listen; while others just left for lunch halfway during lecture. It was a hilarious moment, actually. But I was too tired to laugh. When 'that's all for today' came, I looked back 而大家都走得七七八八了。

This week was veggie-week for me, in an attempt to lower costs - but in the end i spent more. LOL. 'Cos I got hungry faster.

刚刚花了整整三个小时来想一个online assignment question. 就那么一个。最后不耐烦地按了Submit的时候答案竟然是错的。气死我了。欲速而不达形容的恰恰好。我已经用光今天的力气了。

明天再宣战吧。

'依附油钉油肯，油肯! ' - Mary Kay Ash

(:

2008-09-22T21:24:00.007+08:00

今天是值得庆祝的日子。Finally got to video chat with my family! It's heart-warming. And totally giving me the spur to carry on with my week with endless work.

My brother made me do an idiot face. and print-screen. hahas. i know what everyone's thinking, but no. i wont' put that picture up here. it'll scare everyone away. lol

As always, the internet was bad, so the VoIP wasn't clear at all. 断断续续的。

I really enjoyed it, no matter what.

怎麼去拥有一道彩虹
怎麼去拥抱一夏天的风
天上的星星笑地上的人
总是不能懂不能知道足够
- 五月天知足.

知足。我了。

2008-09-20T13:46:00.004+08:00

That's the widget on my desktop. All was well until today, the temperature rose up to 34. And it's not even summer! Not like I haven't experienced hot weather, but I'm still in the midst of getting used to stratification lor.

We need some Al Gore.

Things have really come to a change. Bugs start to fly around the streets. Exotic ones. Some are quite cute actually. Like mini buzzing bumblebees.

I saw Strawberry plants selling at $5 in supermarket! I guess they'll wilt even when I step out of the mall now.

Facebook changed its interface. I didn't like it initially, because the old one actually has a Wall on its own. And it shows the colourful applications that we've added on our profile page. The new facebook has tabs. And it combined all the status changes with the wall.

I even updated my Internet Explorer (who on earth still use IE?) from 7.0 to 8.0 so that the old Facebook is retained. 'Cos the new facebook doesn't work in IE8!

but but but but. Now that facebook profile pages are loading faster, and things became more organised. so I won't complain anymore. haha.

I downloaded Google Chrome for fun. It's pretty good. Very significant faster browsing/loading speed. It doesn't load the homepage forever. Just click and start surfing. It's lightweight too. The drawback is that sometimes certain pages doesn't work - chrome's too new.

My internet is so slow. I can't even watch my xingguang.

Wireless should be worldwide. And free. somebody please do something. It'll come with a Nobel Prize. The person who discovered structure of DNA only wrote a one-page essay and got it! :|

That's all for now.

2008-09-16T19:30:00.002+08:00

America's Got Talent. 好东西当然要分享啦。

I personally think paul potts was better in terms of techniques.
But for this one, it touched my heart.

别哭oh.

2008-09-15T19:37:00.002+08:00

i ~~hate~~ can't stand latex gloves. They're uncomfortable, slimy, and weak.

i ~~hate~~ dislike Mondays. some mondays are just awful.

I like strawberries. Strawberries make me feel happier. (: like how waffle from that particular shop did in singapore.

This would make my day equation balanced.

今天才发现有些人有超能力。可以滔滔不绝的说个不停。他们的嘴脑不用休息的咩. 而且是'有道理'的说。简直是不可思议。

2008-09-13T08:00:00.004+08:00

刘若英 - 《生日快乐》 MV

休止符。真的是个很棒的符号。

我们总会忘了《呼吸》这一块。

在黑夜回家的路上，别忘了放慢脚步、抬头看看对着我们放媚眼的星河。

(:

超级星光大道第四季开始有可看度了。康康、范文凯and that hongkong guy 应该可以进十大。康康的声音很像周惠。还有孙碧娜！很有感情的唱歌。

go go go~

2008-09-11T22:06:00.004+08:00

iPod nano! Give it a shake and it shuffles your music library. Tilt the nano and it becomes a landscape view where you can flip through the coverflow. and more games. It's not quite a surprise actually. Click

And now 120gb classic sells at 398. just 10 bucks more than my 80gig. damn.

I managed to finish another season of greys today! life lessons. life. mmm.

2008-09-11T08:51:00.006+08:00

Guardian Angel

Where did you go after family and friends
left the crematorium, after your ashes
were poured into an urn
a few sizes smaller than your head?
You who once argued that we would all arrive
in heaven after the end, in the belief
that everyone is innocent, ultimately,
and hence forgivable.

Was there a possible moment of fear in the final
hour of your life, a tiny voice informing you
you might be wrong, before sleep finally
piloted you away on that one-way flight;
the same fear in the seat next to yours,
caressing your phantom arm?

Or did you simply stop where you had
begun, in dust, your body
that may have never been designed
as a metaphor for the soul?

Or would you turn into a guardian angel –
what you had wished for as a child – given wings,
a trumpet, and a list full of duties in a shining scroll?
You could never be a devil, considering how
easily you would lose at arguments, as if lacking
a mind of your own. (Or did you always give
in because it was one of the ways you
knew to love me?)

Today, I saw a car barely miss a child who had
sprung free from a parent’s hand to cross a busy street,
and wondered if it was not you
beside the driver as his tires screamed to a halt,
holding on to his fist in a death-grip around the wheel,
beaming at another job well done.

- Poem by Cyril Wong, QLRS Vol. 1 No. 4 Jul 2002

So well-written. So real; how i wished it was surreal.
I fought my tears.

2008-09-10T19:22:00.002+08:00

正当

我以为

自己走对了

却又在霎时

被一道黑暗吞蚀。

好像一个连环图。

I need to get out.

2008-09-08T20:23:00.003+08:00

I suddenly remembered seeing a mrbrown video bro showed me few years back. I watched it again and still had a good laugh. It's so apt, now that speaking intelligible English is quite a concern to me at this very moment. Seriously, something should be done about education in spoken language in sg. Getting distinctions doesn't help. and damn, i'm struggling, trying so hard to get their accent right.

and here goes:

She's an english/lit/drama teacher, MOE scholar, princeton graduate!

"Language is the dress of thought" - Samuel Johnson

2008-09-07T17:12:00.005+08:00

It's Chalk Urban Art Festival today! I attended the roadshow. Big crowds surrounds patches of ground where artists let their creative juices flow.

这个画家蛮有创意的。It doesn't look as fantastic in the picture, but when i was standing in front of it, it really looked as if the dragon was coming out of the ground. He used big chunks of chalkdust to create the fire-breathing effect!

Before and after. This one is my favourite! 真的很像有滩水在地上eh.

Juggler! That's all for the festival! 一个艺术家的聚集地。旁边还有几个 Tents 搭建起来，展示出一些另类的服装服饰。有心动，但是T-shirt material wasn't the kind that i liked. hahas.

3-storey high Apple Store! Everyone was giving me the 'never-seen-an-apple-store-before-meh' look when i was taking this pic. I went in to take a look and it's like a appleproduct paradise. But the price is somehow steeper.

LCD screens built in big iPhones! They used it for Apple Adverts. We should have that in Singapore right.

Reflection on Sydney tower. (at sunset)

McFeast Deluxe! Its oily, sinful, i know. but I haven't had fastfood for a long time, seriously. 'Cos homecooked food is so much cheaper. This value meal costs 8 Aus bucks! hahaha. I think i like Mcdonalds. Still do.
McFries makes me happy. :)

2008-09-06T17:00:00.002+08:00

There was this long queue beside one of the shops in Chinatown. So being a singaporean-me, my instinct tells me to stop and queue too. It had been raining since yesterday. And the winds were quite strong. But the queue never stopped. Like, its a must buy.

I took a bite. It was goodness. Or maybe cos the weather is cold. The cheesy filling flowed out like choc fondant lah! 有点外酥内软. Actually I was expecting to be bigger. Since its 4 for 1 dollar. and I waited for so long. I found out that the machine that makes the puffs are really slow, thats why it took so long. -_-

thats all for now.

2008-09-05T21:49:00.003+08:00

Today's lecture was interactive! I guess the prof was sick of un-engaging students. He came up with the quiz poll exercise. So everyone had to be involved. Questions were shown and we're supposed to enter our answers using the little device:

Pretty cool. Like whowantstobeamillionaire audience helpline. heh.

And I took a maths elective. The lecturer was explaining about equations with x and y, and then he went on to replace the unknown with sausages.

'See, this is what happens when a lecturer didn't take his breakfast,'

Everybody loves a lame joke once in a while.

I had to blog about this:

Wth. it could have been longer. Facebook might just be the next friendster.

:) On a happier note, it's the weekends again!

2008-09-02T18:14:00.002+08:00

Got a new domain!

so ' http://yonghan.co.nr ' links here as well! (:

I have to like labwork.

But i'm trying.

2008-09-01T17:54:00.002+08:00

果然天气转温了。

得告诉自己别再孤僻了。也许我比较适合单独行事。

总算可以休息了

头好痛啊。

2008-08-31T13:42:00.003+08:00

终于又星期天了

听说明日是春的第一天。冬季好麻烦哦。但是有时也很好玩。

二十度。但是下起了毛毛雨。

可能等一下跑一跑步。可以感觉下巴的肥肉有局部增长的迹象。哈哈。

几天前去到Co-Op书店逛。走到该书架才发现一本要好几百块。天价。
明年我完蛋了. 当天在盘算到底要选什么科好。解剖学以后好像还有机会念。这么早就读可能会影响GPA.
药理学又有很多化学organic components.

I donno lah. I should go shop for some hoodies later.

I should update this blog more often！
Since there's more precious than penning down thoughts when i'm all alone.

:)

2008-08-31T10:11:00.000+08:00

time to revive this blog again!

2008-03-22T23:55:00.000+08:00

(C)The Future Photo Museum (C)Free Game FREEM Supported by Free Online Game Matome

i'm a rainbow! (:

2008-03-18T12:25:00.002+08:00

iPod Classic 80GB. I was gazing at it in amazement for at least an hour when I just got it. Haha.

It is not only sleek, like my phone, the games are interactive too! Got a black one, so that that dust on the clickwheel won't be too visible. Perhaps I should just get a silicon case to guard it safely. Fickle between ipod touch or the ipod classic, I decided to get the one with larger storage space bah. So that I wouldn't have the dilemma to remove songs when it reaches the storage quota.

But ipod touch is just too stylish. I'd probably get an iPhone in the future.

我只好用物质的享受让我自己开心一点。It worked, but maybe not for long.

2008-03-10T11:41:00.000+08:00

快好了吧。

痊愈指数 70%.

2008-03-07T22:56:00.005+08:00

又来到了分叉路口。

感觉有点麻。是麻木的那一种。我一直告诉自己，要勇敢，路是自己走出来的。但是我累了；我已经对这一切感到厌倦，错愕。不是我不想往上爬，是心有余而力不足。我真的很累。每天回家面对的都是一样的事，一样的错。在别人面前总是表现出若无其事，完全不在意。其实心里滴的血已经一大桶了。我也知道每个人都有烦恼的事，但是当你真正需要帮忙的时候，有没有人能够愿意不顾一切，甚至是牺牲自己的颜面和时间来帮你呢。

一条绳子是由很多个小绳子组成的。我，就好像被这个绳子吊在悬崖中，只有那一个微小的小绳子在支撑住。剩下的小绳子，因为经不起风吹雨打，断了。可能我的包袱太重，它们也选择放弃。

我可以放弃吗？勇敢很累。乐观更累。
也许发了牢骚心里会好过一些吧。

:)

2008-03-06T00:20:00.003+08:00

It's March already! I lost my first mp3 player. Deeply saddened, and it seemed like there is no way I can get it back. It's probably stolen. I believed in karma. So whoever got it by ways beyond righteousness will get what he/she deserves.

I need music! Should I get an Ipod or something?

But I got myself a new phone! Here's a look at the new kid on the block:

It's the latest E51! It's the editor's choice on Cnet Asia, 3.5G phone, Has Radio, Bluetooth, Wifi, Camera. Thin and Candybar. Just some of the factors that led me into buying it. Although the camera function isn't very fantastic, but I think it's a excellent buy. :)

Oh yes. It's the flowering season in my balcony! Most plants are blooming:

This is the Daffodil lookalike.

Cherry Plant

A beautiful TCM herb plant

And this! it's the first time I'm seeing it flowering. I've heard mum and dad say its flowers are nice but haven't got to see it since young.

And of course the apple plant is growing some apples too. The dragonfruit cactus is also growing many buds! 希望很快就可以吃到龙珠果。呵呵。I think it's the combination of the fresh air, not-too-hot season that synchronised all the plants to flower. I like that feeling to see them growing well.

Koizora - Sky of Love

昨天看了这部电影。差点令我掉泪。故事写得很棒。也很感人。

And that's me.

2008-02-28T13:35:00.003+08:00

My colleague in his 50s and I got too bored at some point of time days ago.
Then he asked me over.

Henry: Eh yonghan. You know what's the national flower of Singapore?

Me: DUH. Vanda Miss Joaquim lor.

Henry: Haha. Alright. Now, what's the national bird of Singapore?

Me: Donno leh. Some kind of canary bird?

Henry: CRANES. *pointing to the IR building site* HAHAHAHAHAHA

Me: .................. -_-

He's really funny!

2008-02-15T11:46:00.002+08:00

笑容。

我快要失去真正的它了。

怎么大人的笑容似真似假，我都给弄糊涂了。

以前在学校别人总把我和笑容放在一起，但是现在它又好像离我好远好远。

笑里藏刀，笑容满面，笑傲江湖。好乱啊。

原来商融界的高层人士都是一堆堆的mannequins. 面具都画得很美，但是内心是悲哀，丑陋，险恶的。

婴儿的微笑还有当小女孩得到心爱的娃娃时露出的那个笑容，才是真实的。难道我们读了书，就变得不一样了吗。工作了几天，发觉其实从小学过的数学，科学，美术，音乐等，都被这些大人舍弃了。只留下westernised的美式英语，半桶水的华语，还有一个个勾心斗角的嘴脸。

It's heartbreaking.

今年的新年和往年的气氛好像不一样了。亲戚之间聊的东西都是那几句，人情味好像少了一些。但是这个星期过的蛮充实的。

明天会更好。 :)

2008-02-05T06:48:00.000+08:00

没有白活(中视八点档电视剧《聊斋奇女子》片尾曲)歌词：
作词：陈乐融作曲：陈国华演唱：杨培安

忘了最初心就死了
没有追求苦中无法做乐
擦肩的人是知音还是过客
没有掌声但请给我自由

狂妄的话谁没说过
哀伤的歌继续等待解脱
曾付出的期待全世界能拥有
沉默的爱又能与谁交流

有多值得就有多难得
有多恩宠就有多忐忑
疲惫的人生不管情不情愿
都得呼啸而过

一天天的守候一夜夜的愧疚
一次次的战斗一点点的收获
一遍遍的怒吼一寸寸的突破
幸运的我没有白活

有多值得就有多难得
有多恩宠就有多忐忑
疲惫的人生不管情不情愿
都得呼啸而过

一天天的守候一夜夜的愧疚
一次次的战斗一点点的收获
一遍遍的怒吼一寸寸的突破
幸运的我没有白活
一遍遍的怒吼一寸寸的突破
幸运的我没有白活

一口气一条命
一道伤一个梦
原来没有白活

2008-02-03T23:46:00.000+08:00

多几天就是除夕了。

每年为自己设下的resolution, 有的却是遥不可及的。

今年还是要实际多一点。2008已经过了一个月。除了找工作和一些琐碎的东西，其实还有好多东西没达成。

想说，可以利用农历，所以2008从初一开始算。哈哈。给自己多一个月。聪明吧。

需要多运动了。我已经通融了几个星期。还是别堕落下去。可能明天放工下去跑一跑。:)

2008-02-02T23:13:00.000+08:00

Top company to work for in 2007

Wow it's saturday already. It's been an amazing week for me, 'cos I'm like officially employed for a full time job for the first time in my life. The 2nd interview before I got the job, was a smooth one, no hiccups at all. They didn't have any bad impression on me; I wore quite formal on that day. the GM then said 'I think you're good, you're in!' WAh. I didn't know how to react- I thought they're supposed to be informing me with a call while i wait for the agonising few days. Then i said,' Wow. This is like American Idol, haha' jokingly. They all laughed and said 'Welcome to hollywood!' I was like 'erm, %@#$!!%' rolling the invisible eyeballs in my mind. Haha, it was fun. The working days that followed was interesting, met new people, made new friends. I think a good job, is one that when you wake up every morning feeling happy and looking forward to seeing the colleagues. And maybe this is it. It's an eye-opener, to see people of every kind. Of course, there are black sheeps, but I'll just need to deal with it like how i survived army. During the briefing, they say most of us are chosen because of our smiles. THAT really made my day. But it was a problem too. Because in school and army, when I'm having a neutral expression on my face, people think i'm angry or feeling down. So i'm hoping it doesn't happen in the work place. haha. :)

The Singapore Flyer looks very very impressive up close. All the behind-the-scene planning, management, ticketings are really carefully done to make sure it'll be a success. It was the first time I had a feel of what it's like having meeting in a work place. It's a totally different experience from lectures. The meeting room had the most comfortable office chairs, large LCD screens for powerpoint, furnished with nice long tables. WOW.

Hmm. And i got myself a haircut before Chinese New Year. It felt cooler. 新的一年新的开始。今天看到了水明。路过碰巧遇见他。他还是一样的随和，有那种大哥的气派。但是带有一点盛气凌人的feel.　哈哈。说道遇见老朋友，真的让我很心烦。怎么最近我遇见这么多的中学，初院，甚至是兵营里认识的朋友，都认不得我了？想要跟他们打个招呼的那一瞬间，他们一个个可以当作没看到我还是旁边突然有东西吸引他们过去看的。是我的问题还是他们的？又不是说我很不友善。我也没有摆个臭脸，让他们退避的理由。还是我从初院到现在的转变太大了呢。真的搞不清楚状况。哈哈。转变也是好的，不是吗。

Amei的歌，小寒的词。这首歌写的真棒。《平常心》。骄傲的心，生气的心，伤心，每天面对的是好多好多的挫折，兴奋。但是真的需要用一种平常心来对待人生那么多的obstacles。活了二十年，也应该得到很多教训。虽然不是很久，但也足够让我体会到什么叫做谦虚，处事待人的大道理。平常心，好重要噢。

街道靜的刺耳　夜被路燈染色
趁感傷醒來前　先上車　不會不捨
承認我是弱者　不敢再對愛假設
我真的累得　不想再拉扯

*我尋找的平靜　是我將來看電影
帶著一顆平常心　不必為誰心碎閉上眼睛
我需要的平靜　是敢回頭看曾經
那些為愛患得患失的情景
我選擇忘記

我不懂得取捨　才讓心痛堆著
找得到前些年的快樂　只是偶爾
回憶是個誘餌　是來叫我回去的
要傷能癒合　我非走不可

　

2008-01-29T23:31:00.000+08:00

2008-01-26T02:32:00.000+08:00

My 1st interview at the Singapore Flyer was, an enjoyable one. Haha. I had tried sending my application many times just in case they don't receive my email. Back to the topic, I made my way there earlier so that I will be calm enough for the interview questions. To top it up, I even went online to look for interview FAQs. The Flyer wasn't just a normal ferris wheel, it's called a 'Giant Observation Wheel'. Really cool, I mean the structure. It took me quite a long time to figure my way into the place, passing by Ritz Calton and Marina Square. But actually there's a shorter route, which I overlooked. The interior looks quite nice, with a artificial lush tropical forest! And it's a three-storey high retail complex. Which is another great thing. The toilet had some cement and mud on the floor, probably cos the foreign workers were using them. Hmm. Everything was new la. And I just got a call for the 2nd round of interview. Hope everything goes smoothly.

Another season of Amazing Race ended too. The team I supported throughout came in second, (damn) again. Christina and Ronald. They're like the only 黄皮肤 team, and father and daughter really portrayed the spirit of teamwork lor. They almost got the champion, but were stuck at the Road Block.

I spotted a cool bag online. It's on my buying list now:

Timbuk2! Everyone's like carrying Crumpler bag. Don't like to be the common crowd. This brand is more expensive, but sturdier and last longer, as quoted from the forums. And it has wider range of colours. Timbuk2

This one's also cool.

2008-01-20T01:02:00.000+08:00

看了超级星光大道总决赛!

梁文音没得冠军。好失望哦。
她一直以来都很棒。这次也不例外。但是给小赖拿走了。哈哈。
她唱的Candyman很不错，所以得了24分。
但是最后总成绩拿了 20.7 输给小赖的21.1 。真可惜。

怎么每次我最支持的唱歌比赛选手，都得第二呢？

噢天啊。这回也是。文音的歌声很有感染力。她总能触碰到人的性灵上最敏感的一角。

2008-01-19T15:33:00.000+08:00

#53 - Most Viewed (Today) - Musicians

Can't believe it. I got the youtube trophy thingy today! Cos my profile was viewed quite alot of times. I'm still working on more songs. Popular ones.

(Edit on 20Jan - It disappeared after a day :O )

I was watching American Idol Season 7 last night. Actually I only liked the audition part of it. 'Cos it's always filled with interesting souls vieing for a place in Hollywood. This Phillipines guy was really cute:

2008-01-17T11:59:00.000+08:00

Some Quizes i did here:

47% Geek

50%

I Scored a 93%!

295 WATTS

This is 18% MORE wattage than the average person
You could light up 3 light bulbs
You could power 74 iPods
You could power 1 Xbox 360
3 of you would be needed to keep a refrigerator running

2008-01-17T00:51:00.000+08:00

張韶涵 - 亲爱的，那不是爱情

作詞：方文山作曲：周杰倫

教室裏那台風琴叮咚叮咚叮嚀
像你告白的聲音動作一直很輕
微笑看你送完信轉身離開的背影
喜歡你字跡清秀的關心

那溫熱的牛奶瓶在我手中握緊
有你在的地方我總感覺很窩心
日子像旋轉木馬在腦海裏轉不停
出現那些你對我好的場景

你說過牽了手就算約定
但親愛的那並不是愛情
就像來不及許願的流星
再怎麼美麗也只能是曾經

太美的承諾因為太年輕
但親愛的那並不是愛情
就像是精靈住錯了森林
那愛情錯的很透明

那溫熱的牛奶瓶在我手中握緊
有你在的地方我總感覺很窩心
日子像旋轉木馬在腦海裏轉不停
出現那些你對我好的場景

你說過牽了手就算約定
但親愛的那並不是愛情
就像來不及許願的流星
再怎麼美麗也只能是曾經

太美的承諾因為太年輕
但親愛的那並不是愛情
就像是精靈住錯了森林
那愛情錯的很透明

- 方文山的词！描述着一段姐弟恋的爱情故事。我第一次听的时候，没觉得怎么样，就飙高音飙得很厉害，但是仔细听了，真的被感动到。Angela 的音域好宽哦。“你說過牽了手就算約定，但親愛的那並不是愛情”。哇。I was totally blown away by that phrase. 爱情，到底是什么？是牺牲，是承诺，还是只是一种感情的依赖呢。古人都没法给它一个完美的定义，我们平民就跟不用说了。爱情应该是简简单单的，然后能够带给两方幸福。对。幸福真的很重要。也许这就是为什么我喜欢陶醉在好歌里，由这些情歌来显出单纯无私的爱。

Hahas. Enjoy.

2008-01-16T22:47:00.000+08:00

杨宗纬 - 洋葱

詞曲:阿信(五月天)

如果你眼神能夠為我片刻的降臨
如果你能聽到心碎的聲音
沉默的守護著你沉默的等奇蹟
沉默的讓自己像是空氣

大家都吃著聊著笑著今晚多開心
最角落裡的我笑得多合群
盤底的洋蔥像我永遠是調味品
偷偷的看著你偷偷的隱藏著自己

如果你願意一層一層一層的剝開我的心
你會發現你會訝異
你是我最壓抑最深處的秘密

如果你願意一層一層一層的剝開我的心
你會鼻酸你會流淚
只要你能聽到我看到我的全心全意

聽妳說妳和妳的他們曖昧的空氣
我和我的絕望裝得很風趣
我就樣一顆洋蔥永遠是配角戲
多希望能與妳有一秒專屬的劇情

Very applaudable lyrics. What's more, the chorus part was even better. 听了就知道。

2008-01-16T21:38:00.000+08:00

After the blast of Apple's iPhone, iPod Touch and the many iPod nanos, here comes the new invention, Macbook Air Click ! And it's only US$1799. It's so thin I can just slot it into the plastic folder we used in sec. school. Together with lecture notes. WOW.

Good job, Steve Jobs. That rhymes.

There's something in the air.

2008-01-16T00:42:00.000+08:00

Some of the very interesting pictures, cartoons, illustrations I found over the net!

Definitely not those cliched pictures from those forwarded emails. I was reading Digital Life today, and they introduced this website called StumbleUpon and I searched out the photos from there. It's really cool, especially the Venn about Americans not knowing where to locate Iraq. Probably an inspiration from the Miss Teens South Carolina's speech last year. Hahas.

2008-01-15T16:26:00.000+08:00

I took this shot at my balcony! It's amazing to see how those lightnings get attracted to the conductor fixed at the rooftop of neighbouring blocks. Had been raining ALOT for the past days, which kind of broke my jogging routine. And the tracks become wet after that, which makes me think twice into running. Anyway, I love this blogskin! Very modify-able. As in, the avatars on the left can be changed whenever i want, provided i can handle the html. I also made the special icon at the url. The rainbow. Makes the whole blog thing look so complete.

Bro bought me this rubik's cube. But it broke before he could hand it to me. The green tile came off, dismantling the entire bits. Dunked into the bin straight away.

Finished off this batch of medicine few days ago. It was a long time since I got really sick. 医生说那是中耳炎，然后幸亏我有去找他；再延迟的话可能就演变成脑膜炎喔。当时我从台湾回来的时候，就觉得很累很累。但我躺下来的时候又觉得整个天花板在旋转。哇。左耳好像有什么塞住似的。哈哈。原来是中耳有些液体，顶住我的听觉。想想那时我真的站也不是，坐也不是，超痛苦的。还好，现在在复原中，没什么大碍了。。

噢对了。去年十二月份我去了人生的第一个签唱会！范范的！第一次听她唱现场的。真的很棒。She was quite tall for a girl, but looked abit tired probably because of her tight schedule. Her singing was, oh man. Flawless. It was almost straight out of her album. And I did an impulse buy there. Bought her album there and had her autograph.

woohoo!