yonghan

Thursday, February 28, 2008

My colleague in his 50s and I got too bored at some point of time days ago.
Then he asked me over.

Henry: Eh yonghan. You know what's the national flower of Singapore?

Me: DUH. Vanda Miss Joaquim lor.

Henry: Haha. Alright. Now, what's the national bird of Singapore?

Me: Donno leh. Some kind of canary bird?

Henry: CRANES. *pointing to the IR building site* HAHAHAHAHAHA

Me: .................. -_-



He's really funny!

Friday, February 15, 2008

笑容。

我快要失去真正的它了。

怎么大人的笑容似真似假,我都给弄糊涂了。

以前在学校别人总把我和笑容放在一起,但是现在它又好像离我好远好远。

笑里藏刀,笑容满面,笑傲江湖。好乱啊。

原来商融界的高层人士都是一堆堆的mannequins. 面具都画得很美,但是内心是悲哀,丑陋,险恶的。

婴儿的微笑还有当小女孩得到心爱的娃娃时露出的那个笑容,才是真实的。难道我们读了书,就变得不一样了吗。工作了几天,发觉其实从小学过的数学,科学,美术,音乐等,都被这些大人舍弃了。只留下westernised的美式英语,半桶水的华语,还有一个个勾心斗角的嘴脸。

It's heartbreaking.

今年的新年和往年的气氛好像不一样了。亲戚之间聊的东西都是那几句,人情味好像少了一些。但是这个星期过的蛮充实的。

明天会更好。 :)

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

没有白活(中视八点档电视剧《聊斋奇女子》片尾曲)歌词:
作词:陈乐融 作曲:陈国华 演唱:杨培安

忘了最初 心就死了
没有追求 苦中无法做乐
擦肩的人 是知音还是过客
没有掌声 但请给我自由

狂妄的话 谁没说过
哀伤的歌 继续等待解脱
曾付出的 期待全世界能拥有
沉默的爱 又能与谁交流

有多值得 就有多难得
有多恩宠 就有多忐忑
疲惫的人生 不管情不情愿
都得呼啸而过

一天天的守候 一夜夜的愧疚
一次次的战斗 一点点的收获
一遍遍的怒吼 一寸寸的突破
幸运的我 没有白活

有多值得 就有多难得
有多恩宠 就有多忐忑
疲惫的人生 不管情不情愿
都得呼啸而过

一天天的守候 一夜夜的愧疚
一次次的战斗 一点点的收获
一遍遍的怒吼 一寸寸的突破
幸运的我 没有白活
一遍遍的怒吼 一寸寸的突破
幸运的我 没有白活

一口气 一条命
一道伤 一个梦
原来没有白活

Sunday, February 03, 2008

多几天就是除夕了。

每年为自己设下的resolution, 有的却是遥不可及的。

今年还是要实际多一点。2008已经过了一个月。除了找工作和一些琐碎的东西,其实还有好多东西没达成。

想说,可以利用农历,所以2008从初一开始算。哈哈。给自己多一个月。聪明吧。

需要多运动了。我已经通融了几个星期。还是别堕落下去。可能明天放工下去跑一跑。:)

Saturday, February 02, 2008


Top company to work for in 2007

Wow it's saturday already. It's been an amazing week for me, 'cos I'm like officially employed for a full time job for the first time in my life. The 2nd interview before I got the job, was a smooth one, no hiccups at all. They didn't have any bad impression on me; I wore quite formal on that day. the GM then said 'I think you're good, you're in!' WAh. I didn't know how to react- I thought they're supposed to be informing me with a call while i wait for the agonising few days. Then i said,' Wow. This is like American Idol, haha' jokingly. They all laughed and said 'Welcome to hollywood!' I was like 'erm, %@#$!!%' rolling the invisible eyeballs in my mind. Haha, it was fun. The working days that followed was interesting, met new people, made new friends. I think a good job, is one that when you wake up every morning feeling happy and looking forward to seeing the colleagues. And maybe this is it. It's an eye-opener, to see people of every kind. Of course, there are black sheeps, but I'll just need to deal with it like how i survived army. During the briefing, they say most of us are chosen because of our smiles. THAT really made my day. But it was a problem too. Because in school and army, when I'm having a neutral expression on my face, people think i'm angry or feeling down. So i'm hoping it doesn't happen in the work place. haha. :)

The Singapore Flyer looks very very impressive up close. All the behind-the-scene planning, management, ticketings are really carefully done to make sure it'll be a success. It was the first time I had a feel of what it's like having meeting in a work place. It's a totally different experience from lectures. The meeting room had the most comfortable office chairs, large LCD screens for powerpoint, furnished with nice long tables. WOW.

Hmm. And i got myself a haircut before Chinese New Year. It felt cooler. 新的一年新的开始。 今天看到了水明。路过碰巧遇见他。他还是一样的随和,有那种大哥的气派。但是带有一点盛气凌人的feel. 哈哈。说道遇见老朋友,真的让我很心烦。怎么最近我遇见这么多的中学,初院,甚至是兵营里认识的朋友,都认不得我了?想要跟他们打个招呼的那一瞬间,他们一个个可以当作没看到我还是旁边突然有东西吸引他们过去看的。是我的问题还是他们的?又不是说我很不友善。我也没有摆个臭脸,让他们退避的理由。还是我从初院到现在的转变太大了呢。真的搞不清楚状况。哈哈。转变也是好的,不是吗。

Amei的歌,小寒的词。这首歌写的真棒。《平常心》。骄傲的心,生气的心,伤心,每天面对的是好多好多的挫折,兴奋。但是真的需要用一种平常心来对待人生那么多的obstacles。活了二十年,也应该得到很多教训。虽然不是很久,但也足够让我体会到什么叫做谦虚,处事待人的大道理。平常心,好重要噢。

街道靜的刺耳 夜被路燈染色
趁感傷醒來前 先上車 不會不捨
承認我是弱者 不敢再對愛假設
我真的累得 不想再拉扯

*我尋找的平靜 是我將來看電影
帶著一顆平常心 不必為誰心碎閉上眼睛
我需要的平靜 是敢回頭看曾經
那些為愛患得患失的情景
我選擇忘記

我不懂得取捨 才讓心痛堆著
找得到前些年的快樂 只是偶爾
回憶是個誘餌 是來叫我回去的
要傷能癒合 我非走不可